1. i dun like goin into circuit.
2. i HATE parkings.
3. pls dun make me panic when im not.

S course's quite fun BUT dun make me panic when im NOT!

sometimes i get really puzzled abt the way things are, or rather how the mind works specifically. dosent all our thoughts and feelings all come from the mind? if it's so, then why are there conflicting thoughts? there are many tings the rational mind jolly well know shldnt be doing or thinking of, but it seems tt tis other side of the mind is opposing to it. it's just like why do we have hopes when many of a times it'll simply lead to disappointment. why cant our mind control and not trigger any tots that will inevitably lead to disapointment? why do we allow ourselves to fall into the trap over n over again? why and more why.. mayb i should learn to tame tis stubborn mind of mine.

confusion of the mind. complexity of life.

will i ever grow up? i hav no idea.. at least im still as childish as ever.. not to everything but seems like for certain aspect i nv will. sucks man. for a moment the anger wil get into me but thereafter i noe very well it's wrong but cant help but let my heart rule instead of my mind. or is that just an excuse. i hav no idea again! and thanks to my inborn stubbornness, will refuse any offer made in attempt to make things better. i suck and i noe tt.. which makes it worse. get a life.

are the things that we don't have or can't have it now the most beautiful? just like memories.. if we are able to turn back time, will memories still be as beautiful?

do you ever wonder who really is interested about things you gotto say n stuff? sometimes i get the impression that nobody really cares what you gotto say. maybe we should just try asking ourselves how often are we sincerely interested in what others are saying? that's beside the time when they're talking about things concerning you. very often i rather keep to myself.

once again im back in one of those days which i've lost my direction. crying out loud for a haven to seek shelter in. it's one of those days which im standing alone in e rain with blurred vision not knowing to where im heading.. just standing there...

there are things which i noe shldnt instill in the mind right from the very start, knowing that it'll only lead to disillusion, but the stubborn mind still chose to fall into the trap. the trap which so many times it took great effort to get out of it. The melancholy of the wind is ringing all over again.

was looking at chui's blog n she her creation.. which ends with.. I am that girl who is everything and not. What about you? here's my ans to it for the time being...

I am the girl who likes to indulge in her own fantasy world, where all her wishes come true.

I am the girl who likes darkness before rain and the strong wind which calms her nerves.

I am the girl who stood alone in the rain with blurred vision,not knowing where to head to.

I am the girl who enjoys reminicing about her past and unwilling to move on or throw off all the impositions of the past.

I am the girl who prefers nightfall over daylight and listens to the melancholy of the wind with her heart.

I am the girl who creates hopes and protects herself by crushing them before the reality surfaces.

I am the girl who realised without hoping for anything, there'll be no diasppointment, but still could not ease her troubled mind.

I am the girl who is the root of her troubles.


when will the day ever befall on me?