It's christmas eve! i've always preferred xmas n cny eve rather than the actual day itself... just love the atmosphere =) xmas to me is all abt warmth, love, joy and toys! used to get barbie dolls every christmas. my ideal xmas gift in the past. it's still vivid in my mind how spoilt i was in the past that there was once my uncle asked me wad i wanted for xmas and as usual i asked for my fav! haha. but guessed he forgot abt it and got me a swatch watch instead n i was so upset abt it tt i couldnt stop crying.. in the end my dad bought 2 for me! haha.yes, indeed im spoilt rotten. but really hate empty promises.. i'd rather not have any then empty ones. esp not on special occasions..

spending xmas eve with the usual gang yet again but im not complaining. every yr we'll wish for the same stuff n we jus wonder when it'll ever come true. will it? haha! sry hw, cant make it for chocolate fondue tonight. other day k? promise! im still dreaming of a white christmas though.. ideal with night view of NYC! xmas movies like 'home alone' are wonderful too! haha. it's the season to be jolly, falalalala lalalala..

dear santa..we've been.. erm..quite good this year.. will you drop by?

where is santa?

anywayz.. jus wanna wish one and all..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

live for today and plan for tomorrow

how very true.. yet not so very easy..

never did learn my mistake. as much as i know what alcohol will do to me, i still did it. alcohol.. too stubborn for good. yucks *puke*. yes, literally did it. there goes 21bucks. and yes, of all places there. ok at least not on the dance floor. but still, how wonderful it is. great.

promise to abstain from alcohol. phobia.

i am so tired.. but my dear hair just refuse to dry. heck, sleeping anyway. *yawnz*

goodnight/morning.

i dun like to say comforting words. not that i don't care. but cos i dun wish to remind you of the unhappy stuff. and yet do not know what's exactly appropriate to say. and yes, you were right in saying we can't imagine how it feels.. how very true. all that we can do probably will be hoping to see your old self once again. we know it takes time. no worries, we'll be waiting, be it a month, a year or even longer. but you shldnt take too long a time too, cos there're many things and people that you live your life for.. sometimes in our rush to see you back to ur old self, we might sound harsh, hope you'll understand. you've always been there to hear my thousand and one complains, problems, worries and stuff.. likewise, i wanna do the same for ya. =) guess only here that u can get these words from me.. cos i dun reckon i'll actually say it out loud.

sad.people are all sad for different reasons.

happy. hope everyone can be happy for one reason or another.

went JB to shop yesterday.. for a lame reason.. we are dying to go on a 'oversea' trip tis holiday.. but all thanks to someone tt we cant.. goin florida wout ME huh? thanks arh.. (im rather sensitive to words like florida & new york nowadays. sigh) anywayz, the journey there was horrible! took us few hrs jus to get cross a causeway. rather not mention abt it. but it's still quite funny the how we got our way through and the way raf 'guarded' n coolly overtook e few women. really wonder why cant ppl jus queue properly?! isit tt hard?! urgh!

raf went mad looking and trying on shoes frm shop to shop.. and after a long search.. FINALLY she got THE shoe. ok, it's quite nice lar.. but green shoes with the gold tick really reminds me of xmas lor. and as usual, she went broke after getting it (tt was wad happened in hk a yr ago too) as i said- killed by a shoe.

on our way back, due to the traffic jam, we figured tt it'll be much faster if we walk.. my first ever experience of getting across the causeway on foot. vechicles jus zoomed pass us inches away like nobody's business. scary.

come to tink of it. it's almost a yr since our hk trip. misses it. the pretty night view, the nice weather, taking pic with 'santa' n of cos how hilarious we were. tink we'll still be laughing abt it 10yrs down the road. lolx! let's do it again!

able to spend time with my good old frens is a big part to why i love holiday so much. =) looking forward to my fav xams and cny. do not wish to think of things tt wil dampen tis mood. trying to escape frm it. but it's not tt easy. i'm jus an escapist.

sounded different. cold. hope she's fine.

can things ever be the same again?

maybe not.

Life's really unpredictable. it's jus a thin line between life n it's counter part, but the distance it created is unmeasurable. we have no control when we'll cross that line, but pls dun seek to cross it. when it's time it'll come. sometimes i feel that leaving this glorious stage of life could also mean gaining eternal peace in ur own world, not having to bother about superficial things in life anymore.

a true escapist.

let's back track to friday...

finally went out with geraldine. guess e last time we met was like before sch started? long long time ago huh? had fun singing songs. she's so in love w eason chan manz. haha. oh and we managed to get 1hr extra of singing! yay! they didnt bring us the bill..so too bad. haha! but oso cos of tt 1 extra hr...

i was late for my next date, with chui. haha. sry dear, made u waited for almost an hr. anywayz, had dinner at crystal jade.. and when e bill came.. as u all know, we're poor students yar? so obviously we'll give exact amt rather den extra wad. guess e aunty was alr laughing abt it.. n when we were tryin to make our escape, she saw us n wanted to give back the 5cents change to chui n guess wad? our dear girl ya-ya-ly said dun need..wahhahaa. tt was damn funny manx! could stop laughing abt it. wahahahha! okie. tink i shld stop embrassing her furthur.. hmm.. but guess e harm's alr done rite? opps! sry ger..hahahaha

back in hall! guess last nite's wing bbq was really a flop. more like the bbq for ourselves. haha. but with sab back in hall, it's like how it used to be. =) heard many stories frm marc.. interesting n creepy. haha. rainning now, which's nice.. BUT cant go can 2 get our waffles now. wanna go hm too! raahh!