as requested by jess.. i'm back. haha. exam's over. finally over. in fact it ended on monday. wanted to blog on monday but apparently blogger had prob and refused to publish the post, so forget about it. lemme see where to start..

people have been saying "happy rite? exam over liao" and my answer will be "not really". so far have yet to feel much about it. relax, definitely. sometimes i think too much for my own good. but can't help it. sigh. i don't wish to find out anything. sometimes i really want to be all alone. not wanting to be in contact with the outside world. 'cause only then can i escape from everything else and live in my own world. that's my way of escaping. anywayz 'nuff of that. let's update other stuff.

day 1.
first after the last paper was over, went crystal jade for xiao long bao.. love it! yummy!! my first time ever watching a korean movie in cinema- The Art of Seduction. chui said that her friend said it's a damn funny show, but raf wasn't exactly keen and said it's only hearsay, and with that i told raf in the future, she shall watch the movie first before suggesting to watch it with her friends. then it won't be hearsay right? hahaha. chui was conned into believing the tickets were sold out. but taking the fact that it shouldn't be such a hot show and it's monday evening, she went to the counter to ask for the tix. we had to make sure she went up to ask before telling her they'd actully bought the tix. haha. quite a nice show. it's funny. but there's a part when the guy inside was so sweet!! did everything to make the girl happy! sigh~ haha. after the show, we spent a long time in coffee club trying to help shu find her 'direction'. hahaa. but i guess in the end she need to make her own choice.

day 2.
what can be done in 12 hours? you can go oversea and back. really. thanks to my crazy friend who alwayz come out with wonderful ideas but she insist that i'm the crazy one who alwayz make sure that the ideas are excuted. but in my opinion, nothing will be done without the ideas. right?? haha. but impromptu's good! i mean what for think so much. it'll be so sian if your friend suggested something and is excited about it and you'll alwayz say "eh see how lor
or "ok. other day la". -_- usually if think too much and need too much planning, nothing will be done at all! so if the thought comes, just do it! just like how we decided to go hong kong and went settled the trip within few days! and it's somthing we'll never forget! oh having said so much, have yet to talk about what was done in 12 hours. we went jb to shop and came back to go kbox. and we sang for 6hrs! omg. never sing for so long i tell you! we sang till we feel that we'll have muscle ache at the throat the next day! hahaha. it's was like towards the end i could not control my voice anymore! lolx!

day 3.
met zhiqi after so long! my dance-liking partner. hahaa.. that's why we went to watch Take the Lead. lolx. not a wonderful show i gotto say. too much talking i guess, but whenever it's a show about dancing, watching the moves alone will be enjoyable enough. haha. Do you like dancing? If you do, you're made for it. that obviously didnt come from me. of course it's from the show. duh. haha. but yea. i agree. dancing is all about enjoying the music and the moves. but doing it well or not is another story la. hahaha. i wanna dance! lolx!

have been play solitaire since exam time. i'd like to believe it trains my brain to be alert. haha. have been watching 恶魔在身边 again. so nice! so sweet!! haha. that's it for today la. i'm tired. nitezz!

stat-is-sick. indeed.

exam's FINALLY over. it's been a long 3 weeks.. ought to be over the moon. yea ought to.. but sigh. guess i'll need time to get over it.

let's just enjoy hanging out and doing stuff i like. yeah.

sudden urge wanting to watch old chinese shows like telemovie Qi Yue Qiao Jia Ren and Wild Orchid.. but will never be able to do so i guess.

i'm dying.. sigh

if you're losing your way
think back on yesterday...

it's early in the morning.
mummy wakes me up as usual
and brushes my teeth while i sulk as i wanted more sleep.
and off i go to school.
few hours later, school ended.
home sweet home.
3 o'clock, time to watch old drama on tv.
5.30pm, more tv.
6 o'clock wheel of fortune's on.
6.30pm, followed by the pyramid game.

life's so nice
but can never turn back time.

sometimes i tend to wonder why peope go mad.
did they decide to let it go and not bother about anymore things?

it never was a problem
and why is it so now? why?

i need to find something i'd lost for a long time
it's hard after all these years
memories of it is vague
where was it left? where?

what is it then?
myself. perhaps.

watched 4 movies in total these 2 days (out of which 2 i'd watched before).. 3 in a row today, quite a heavy dosage manz. not exactly for pleasure as cinematic pleasure ought to be (cinematic pressure as my friend called it. haha) but quite enjoyed the shows.. much better than the first few. haha. and the common thing about these shows is that they got me thinking.

the first was From Hell... horror flick about the serial killer back in the 19th century (if i'm not wrong) who went around killing prostitues- Jack the Ripper. beneath all the gory killings, it showed the superficial society where the highly educated and rich were regarded as 'gentlemen' who should not be suspected of the crime. and of cos the twist of most stories will always be the other way round. and no exception for this film.

next was 12 storeys by Eric Khoo. i like that show. i've always like local shows with their touch of local flavor. it's a chronicle of life, dipicting typical Singaporean pysche in a subtle way with the element of humor. or perhaps it's cynicism? it shows the things that are happening around us everday. the way people act. one thing about watching local shows like that are that heavy national issues are brought up with humour. in a sense they're entertaining yet trigger my thoughts.

Bowling for Columbine- Micheal Moore probed into the issue of gun violence in US. watched it in JC before during GP lesson but can't really remember the details. it reminded me that i wrote a strory based on the Columbine High School massacre, which the documentary is based on, during sec sch. it's just sadness. sadness for the people who were victims of it and for the ones who committed it as well. the irony and cynicism was brought across with the song 'What a Wonderful World' with images of killings around the world. indeed, what a 'wonderful world' we're living in. the world isn't all about bad doings, but it's not wonderful afterall. while watching the show, a sudden contrast came to mind. the contrast between the movie Home Alone and Bowling for Columbine.

finally In Mood for Love, the well-known artsy-fartsy film of Wong Kar Wai. despite watching it for the second time, i still failed to fully understand the show. maybe it's too cheem for me la. anywayz, according to the lecturer, the show brings about a sense of nostalgia. but he said that most of us in our 20s, there's nothing to be nostalgic about but i disagree with it. totally.

nos·tal·gi·a

1) A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.
2) The condition of being homesick; homesickness.

it was not stated in the meaning how long ago the past ought to be, so to me, anyone who starts have memory of the past is capable of being nostalgic. things that happened 20 yrs ago were the past, but things that happned 5 yrs ago were also the past. so feeling nostalgic is not just the priviledge of the older people.

anywayz, those above are just random thoughts of the films. really gotto hit the books.

never assume the thing is always there. one day when you suddenly go looking for it. it's gone. it's a sense of guilt cum loss. guilt because you've never paid attention to it, even when it'd gone missing, you didnt realise it. loss because you've always thought it's there and you'll be able to reach it as and when you wish. but it's not. it's gone. forever.

guess it applies for people to. but it's always easier said than done.

okay, now i'm in sch waiting for OB lesson=OB presentation (*gulp*) sigh... since i've decided to waste my time away not making any effort to memorise the script, i shall do some update for the wkends worth mentioning...

basically i wasted my whole wkend on my eyes 0_0... wanted to get new contact lens as my supply of it had been used up. BUT they refused to sell me! apparently coz my eyes have prob. was told to go eye doctor and ended up waiting at ttsh for so long.. now my eyes are on medication.. which make my eyes produce yellow substance.. sometimes i wonder isit pass of isit the cream itself.. anywayz, the bottom line is... i can't wear contacts for sometime. sux.