Once again there are thousand and one things that need to be done. but i can't bear to start work plus it's tuesday, the long and tiring day of the week. after a full 8 hours of lessons straight on every tuesdays, it'll feel like a sort of accomplishment. yea, so usually on tuesdays night will tend to give myself a break ( but not as if i don't on usual days.. as hf was saying the other day that the amount she rested will be enough for her to go around the world, and so i typed: i'll be able to go round twice then). but as i like to say, 休息是为了走更长远的路. omg, as i was typing that phrase, realised i actually can't remember the word 更 off hand. guess i need to write more in Chinese. have been off touch for quite sometime. anyway, that's out of the point. the point is that, work is really piling up. totally agree with zQ (with both hands up!) that - life .. is .. all .. abt .. meeting .. project .. datelines .. hey i'm worse in time management manz! lolx! 2 major projects, 1 essay assigment & 1 quiz to be done within the next week. that's for the time being. 2 more quizes to be done after those and exam's in 1 month's time. oh yea, i'm screwed. Sigh.
suddenly remembered that a few weeks ago, a tutor was saying that scientists can't categorize virus as being dead or alive and the punch line was something like - "and you thought you could differentiate between life and death". sometimes it makes sense. life and death. maybe they're just different type of living. but that'll depend on what's your definition of living. in this case, perhaps living is just existence? be it in whatever form? no idea. this leads to another thought that crossed my mind just that day. no one living person can really give an answer to the question - is there really life after death? if there really is, it's for us to find out when the time comes. but if there isn't, no one being will ever know the answer all their lives.
what is life? what is the meaning of living? all beings know that life will end one day, and when the day comes, all the sorrows and every other thing will be of no meaning. so why are people slogging their guts out everyday? i'm definitely part of that community and will always be till the time comes.
by the way, i'm not depressed or feeling down now. but stressed definitely. just curious. can't seems to figure the question of life out all the time. enlighten me if you can. as depressing as life can be at times, guess we just gotto learn to find things that'll make ourselves happier (even though we're living in one of the most unhappy country). indulge in little things. ignore about other's opinion or whatever. be a child if you want to. as long as it makes you happy, who cares? indulge.
projects projects projects.
readings readings readings.
reseach research reseach.
datelines datelines datelines.
quizzes, quizzes, quizzes.
work, work, work.
stress, stress, stress.
All will be of nothing when the time comes.
Life's a mystery with the capital M.
