im confused all over again.. chengxun has been trying to convince me change my mind.. i noe his nick is meant for us - pizzicato: i hope u all dun leave, please reconsider ur options, we r always here to help. it seems tt i've made up my mind n stuff n now.. guess the rational part of me knows that my decision is right but there'll always be a but.. sometimes i just wish that im more decisive. i seems to always be piling unnecessary load on myself.. mayb i just tink too much. there's someting chui said tt's v true- sometimes u gotta be tis little selfish to settle on a desicion..or else u jus keep goin round n round. but it can get really hard sometimes.. not like im a nice person or wat.. but it's e guilt within. why cant my mind be ever at peace?! it's like ever since entering JC, my closest frens were nv in e same sch.. even till now.. when i just got in to my permanent sch after e first 3 mths.. i was totally at loss. not having anyone real close beside me.. sometimes i really wish sch life will just be lik that of pri sch or even sec sch.. when my closest frens r always within reach anytime.. today's mid autum festival.. shu's nick was- mooncake festival leh..play lattern anyone. it reminded me of once when me, chui n shu went to play lantern at chui's old hse area. come to tink of it, tt was years ago. time really flies man! chui's old hse.. our old hunt.. would go there so often in the past. the fun old days. feels like an old woman who keeps reminiscing abt the past..p.s. to cx: no matter wat our decision will be.. our frenship wil nv change.. u'll still be our dear dage aka sista.. sisterhood!
went suwern's hse 4 project yesterday.. hmm.. or rather the day before (wednesday).. n i love her dog bendy!!! she's so guai! suwern got her frm SPCA and she was abt 3mths old den.. couldnt tink why she was abandoned and wat she had been thru'.. hope nothing bad.. anywayz.. im happy today! as in thurs..met up w shu n chui. my frens since forever.. haha. we've known each other since we're lik in pri sch.. really love them n love meeting them.. we're not those frens who lik always meet up but whenever we do.. we'll still be as comfortable w each other's company as ever. we took neoprints as insisted by me.. but when chui was in the machine she got all excited tinkin abt poses la.. haha. tink it's e first time only 3 of us took neoprint together. we actually took 2 times thnx to darling who pressed the wrong ting e first time.. haha. toked to them alot n they made me more certain abt my decision.. i love u guys! the person who really confirmed my decision was huiwen.. my dear roomie.. didnt expect her to actaully hav e tot o quitting hall before oso.. not cos we dun lik hall life.. but tt we cant really manage our time well.. n we ought to concentrate on our studies.. so guess after all.. sab, hw n me we'll be quitting hall. relieved.
it's been more than a mth since i'd last updated tis tingy.. wat's new rite? though sch had started for less than 3mths.. it seems lik forever! and im not exggerating.. it really feels lik i've been leading this life for years! im not sure if hall life is draining on my energy.. it's not that hall life's not fun.. in fact most of my frens in sch r frm hall.. but im puzzled why even when im living IN SCHOOL.. time is still lacking. why? am i plain bad in time mangement? guessed just about it. will staying at home make me more disciplined? im contemplating of...but my decision does not only affect myself.. but my roomie too.. sigh.. im not exactly used to uni's style of school yet.. we dun hand up our weekly work but jus simply go thru' in class.. but i really wonder how do we really know if our answers r right or wrong especially on subjects such as marketing and biz law where there doesnt seems to have any exact ans to ANYTHING! sometimes i feel really lowly of myself.. dun feel tt im cut out to be a uni student.. where's my vision n stuff abt uni life i set before i got in?? currently working on tis 1000words biz law assignment which will take up 20% of our final grade! but i've not idea how to start! i really suck man! im tired.. tired of not able to finish what i need to do.. tired of being inefficient.. tired of complaining.. tired of saying sorry (which i've been doing quite frequently).. tired of being tired.. tired of being me..tired of myself.
