on the way back home on the train, was sitting beside a guy who was digging him nose happily, flipping his papers on people and wetting his fingers with his saliva to ease flipping of the pages. i very much like to tell him: hey there, there're some things u can juz keep to urself. there is no need for public display of them. oh mentioning about this reminded me of the girl beside me during lect.. she was like clearing her ear hole (the pierced one) and den she jus kept flicking stuff off her fingers.. omg, where is the sense of hygiene of people?! sometimes i wonder can anyone really dun care about how other people see them? totally indifferent to the scrutiny they're under? i can't imagine that coz personally, i gotto admit that i cant. can you? people can jolly well say they're just happy being themselves and who cares about what others gotto say. but in my opinion, still think that it is inevitable that every individual will be affected by the judgements of others. as much as we would like to ignore or even deny that, i feel it's just how the way things are.. there's no way we can really oppose it. it might sound like a loser who is twisted around the fingers of social norms or whatsoever, but hey.. sometimes we really gotto face the fact.

wanna watch 'i not stupid 2' but it seems that most of my frens are not interested in watching it in cinemas.. i wan.. like the first show coz i feel that there are well mixed of various elements in the show.. and it's something we can relate to. can still remember i cried at the scene where the boy was bringing his result to his mum who was in the hospital.. he didnt manage to reach her expectation afterall, but his mum was nonetheless happy cos he had put in effort. so i guess it made me realised that sometimes it's not that parents have unreasonable expectations, it's juz that they view things differently. so anyone wanna watch that show?

but wadever. those are not important..wad's impt today was wad i did...
after a long long struggle, i'd finally done it.. finally filled up the withdrawal form and handed it up.. tt's it.. no more turning back. was thinking about it throughout the journey back home just now and all the memories came back.. how we slacked arnd in our room, the 128 hangout (remembered it when i filled in the room no. on the form juz now), how we would have breakfast together and walked to sch, and of coz having supper with ah pek or neville (3 1/2 women) or dage. but i guess the analysis we did in OB tutorial was true somehow- that maybe i really do need space of my own. and i can't help but feel as though im trapped in sch if i were to continue staying. it's quite a selfish decision i've made. had been goin in circles about this issue for a long time.. some might think wad's the big deal about it..but to me it is.. coz it's a decision that will not only affect myself. have no idea how to put it across to zhiwei.. maybe i'd disappoint him.. i don't know. but the more important thing is that im sorry hw.

everyone who saw me today was asking if i'm very tired..yes i am..wasnt feeling well and it had to be such a long day..really hate tuesdays. been a bad day.